Today has been a day of reflection with many thoughts and heart workings. It is very fitting since it is the Lord’s day. For a bit, we were thinking maybe Steve could go in for our afternoon church service but then realized that was a bit too soon. He is so eager to be back in the house of the Lord. But, It was wise to wait though for a little longer.
We live-streamed with our brethren and the sermon spoke overwhelmingly to us. Our pastor talked about the difference between “Paper Presbyterianism” and true “Apostolic Presbyterianism”. He spoke on the importance of deep, practical Christian love. True sharing of the sufferings of others and rich love of the church in deep tangible ways. It made my husband weep because we have felt the effects of this so deeply. If you are able to listen to the sermon, it is a true gem. We are very keenly aware that all that God is doing with Steve’s accident goes far beyond us and the here and now.
Later in the afternoon, I took him for a walk in the wheelchair. It was moving to me to see my husband’s thankfulness for the tiny things we always take for granted. He was delighted in the vibrancy of the green trees and the blueness of the sky. He rejoiced to hear the wind whistling through the pines and asked me to bring him a piece of the bit of remaining ice and snow so he could feel it. How often do I go right past these things without seeing the beauty of the Lord in them? And here my husband is so thankful for these little mercies.
I wrote Psalm 37 on the bathroom mirror for him today. I would like to change out scriptures to encourage him in these little ways. And all my BONES shall say, who is like unto Thee!
Then tonight in family worship Steve was instructing the children how we can learn about the Christian and sickness in Philippians 2:26 “For he longed after you all, and was full of heaviness because that ye had heard that he had been sick.” Epaphroditus was not “woe is me because I am sick,” but he was more worried about the saints that they not be overburdened. Steve has really been an example to me of this–from the first night of his accident, his concern has been for others.
“The winter prepares the earth for the spring, so do afflictions sanctified prepare the soul for glory.” Richard Sibbes